Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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